I am washing my bedding here at the barn and then I shall deep clean the place ready for the next guests. The couple have offered me free board until Monday – but as a mark of respect I shall leave today and place a vase of flowers on the pine table for them together with a good bottle of wine. I would never be a burden. Sometimes we just need someone to listen and not judge. I am humble.
I had three birthday cards this year. One from my gorgeous little nieces Gracie and Abbie. I miss them dreadfully. I am not seeing them grow up as much as I would like. One from Mum and Dad and another from oldest life friend Adele who came to be by my side when I lost Foley.
I paid for a nice meal out in Blackpool and had some saucepans, plates and a healthy breakfast from a stranger who I hope is now on his own journey. I had a tree of life necklace from Tara and James took me out for a meal. My dad and my son bought me huge and beautiful flowers. My favourite thing. Flowers are life force and flowers are colour.
I am travelling South for a few more days before I return to work. It is my second year now in the hotel trade. I am learning many lessons and I think the most recent is not to be too generous as others will perceive this as my weakness.
I am depleted and at that point where I could slip into a depression. This starts with cutting myself off but I cannot do this. I have been sentenced to a five year lease like it or not and I have served one year. Now it’s my second. It’s been gorgeous but also rancid at times. I am trying to focus on the love and not the fear. Most people have left with grace.
I am thankful for my family, friends and neighbours. But for these next few days I am most thankful to my two little dogs who make life more bearable.
I am up for an award later in the year. It’s the taking part that counts. Some people out there would be banging on and on about such a thing. But an award is a moment not a lifestyle. I have better plans for a certain day in November where I hope for a much longer term event to do with my own heart and the love of my life.
I do not need any more baggage in my life. Dealing with strangers who pay the way is all I want for now. I have everything else. I just need some time alone. But I suppose all this is better than being stuck in a daily routine of nothing much. At least my days are full of choice and variety. Be kind to one another. But not so generous you get your energy taken.
To my little fluffy baby I am so sorry for humans. Mummy will be near soon my sweet baby bird who needs the sea. You landed on my doorstep on my birthday last June. I am so sorry for all the nastiness from humans! They tear us apart! I will call you down from heaven when I get home. Don’t try to find me. Live FREE!
I am staying with a gorgeous Catholic couple of pensioners. I am not into religion – regardless – they gave me their barn until Monday and then I go somewhere else, I won’be long. And I am getting tattooed on Thursday! By an Amazing Artiste … ouch … penning – channelling.
AND you know What Percy? I can turn my phone off for as long as I want. My world is better.
Love Mummy. X
I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend. To walk ahead on our own unique pathways. To let go of fear – malice and ill intention. To seek hard work as individuals and think kind thoughts independently without wishing harm to another. To let go of the past and learn by our mistakes. To not seek revenge or ever acts of hatred, harm and violence. To not wish harm to others in any situation. To lead with love and forgiveness. To not cling to the energies of another.
For us to respect mothers both here and on and over the spiritual plain. To take responsibility for own destiny. To be responsible for our own actions – to be kind. To keep ourselves busy with our own personal goals. To discover goodness in others. To live with love and no regrets. To understand the difference between connections and bullying. To not live in shame or remorse but to be humble in all matters. To be individual and focused for own higher relationship with Angels. Angels of light – Angels of love – Angels of healing and guidance – always …
There is enough nastiness in this world without bringing anymore into it. Let nature decide. That is all that matters. Nature – Peace and Clarity. Violence – pain and sorrow are only works of evil. It takes a bigger person to choose the light path to infinity. For after we all leave here there is the opportunity of great peace and love. We each of us are only responsible for ourselves – so be kind – be forgiving and walk on.
I am my own person. I do not seek friendship. I do not seek dependency. I do not seek protection or defence. I seek my own soul purpose alone. I earn my own money and choose how I do things in my own world. This is my born purpose. I never invade another destiny or try to alter the Akashic records that are there for us all to embrace as individual souls who realise their own journey has nothing to do with anyone else’s.
We cannot force our presence onto another. We cannot knock away at others when they do not want that contact. We as a race of living beings must leave the dogma of ill intent alone. To be only with and only responsible for own actions and instruction for love and peace. Peace in all forms of kindness. To be kind is to be righteous. We are born alone. We die alone – sleep with a good conscience knowing that silence and meditation with the hills – with the ocean and with a heart for charity is all you need here.
Tiffany Belle Harper.
I have been pretty exhausted. More mental tiredness than physical – but not in a harmful way. A year ago I never imagined things would be like this today. We need to know that life can change in any direction pretty quickly. My life is currently chaotic. I do not have my own kitchen or private garden. Everywhere is public and this takes some getting used to when you are used to spending days or weeks even, in your own head space. There is a balance. I had hoped in my younger years I would be leading a life of leisure by now, but not the case. Yet a part of me would not have it any other way.
I do miss though, not being able to find time to just write in a quiet location, so grabbing a few days away here and there is a life line. I am not posh and whilst I love the thought of being in splendid hotels I would rather just find little spaces to source my inner craft of mood boarding for my project, my writing and enjoying photography. Talking of hotels … beam me up!
My street is still good but the new place is attracting a bit of controversy for no particular reason. This is why a change is as good as a rest … as otherwise we can become embroiled in gossip and small talk which is not good for progress. Don’t mention ‘fence’. Heaven knows what I’ve done wrong now? Yet, we must remain detached and on track for self improvement as life is very short. We are born alone – we die alone and as I always say, ‘ the bit in the middle is to embrace’.
I am enjoying work but it does scare me, as you sort of morph into a person who is in a state of constant giving and this can distract us from our true purpose during our own unique pathway. But this can change. This can change with will power in conjunction with the universe and the light that goes with it. To share love – to not judge and to accept one another regardless of our backgrounds and circumstances. To not intoxicate our brains with problems and addictions – but to find solace with nature and healthy eating in order to promote a longer and more substantial life. To find space for our own time. To avoid jealousy and other worthless emotions. We are one.
I do hope you appreciate the beautiful strawberry moon and a very happy Daddy Day to my one. I had better go as otherwise I will return to Blackpool with nothing done and that is a road to failure. I have a pile of tasks to sort out this week. A constant battle, a battle that I do not entertain. I like it simple. All is well. I wish you the same. Love my kids. Love my family. Love my friends. Nothing will change that and nothing should want to. Love is everything.
By the way I still have my seagull he has visited almost daily now since last year. An ongoing blissful friendship. He drops shells on my head and you may be surprised to know he is actually shy. He is a feathered diplomat. A messenger for peace! Bless my little fluffy fella.